I duno. Kinda in a far-off mood. Know what I mean? Probobly not.

Its one of those times where you don't know anything realy. You can't focus. You can't work. You don't want to think too hard. And allthough you wan't to go to sleep, your mind tortures you by keeping you on the brink of reality as you stare at the cealing.

...how poetry worthy. XD


Now that my emo depressing passage is out of the way, I am going to talk about a personal problem of mine. "Because admitting you have a problem is the first step to getting rid of it." Or something like that.



WELL I am fairly worried about the future of my life for some resaon. Lately I have been too laid back, and not careing about very much. Getting some of my homework only half/done the period right before it is due. Lately I have been not caring. And allthough I know I have the brains to easliy pass school if I put a lot more effort into it, I never realy... well... DO. I haven't been strick on myself about studying, getting my homework done, and doing well. Thus why I seem to be getting grounded. Thus why I realze it is my fault for not having any time to see my friends. Thus why I need to change.

And so I shal! I promise to all the people who are reading this, that I am going to change out of this state of mind, shal refine my study habits, and boost up my grades so I can actualy spend time with my friends! Even if it means I don't touch a video game controler for a week!


And now for other things! Since I have a lot of things I am doing in my life that I have wanted to put in here months ago


So A FREAKING LONG TIME AGO (back in october or november) a few students and I got to go to SOE (Sony Online Entertainment) headquarters in California since it was only about a 15-20 minute drive from our school! IT WAS AMAZING! I had allways wondered how some huge MMO game companies looked like on the inside workings, and it looks like a realy cool job. I was thinking of going into a job of something like this a while ago, but this realy re-inforced it. Fun invironment. Lots of cool things to do. And I am fairly framilier with a lot of the concepts of work they are doing since I have hung around the comptuer a bit longer than I should have these past years.

And we got free stuff! I got a disk that has a month worth of premium memberships for a game called Freerelms, as well as a $10 cash card for it. And... A MONTH SUBSCRIPTION FOR EVERQUEST! Its basicaly like WoW, but its not. (Nicknamed Evercrack by some players for obious reasons) Some friends and I were going to try it at the same time, but since I am grounded... well... yeah. So its been collecting dust in my room for about two months now. XD

But I did get a cool pen with a flashlight on it and a hand bag with the words "Phat Lewt" on it. XD




In also other news, I have no progress on CH8.

In OTHER other news, my friends and I are doing an RP that I think is turning out so well, I might write a story on it. That makes... 1... 2... 3 stories I am going to be writing, minus the mentaly revising Melthia.



Hey, the REALY old journal entries that get shoved off the list on the right side of a journal, is there any way to look back at them? Or are they gone for good? Because I allways liked looking back at some old journal entries (thus why I saved my realy long excerpt on PKMD: BRT in a word document)


Curses, no more free journal skins. Pitty. I liked my stamps. D:


So thats life for me. Hope everyone is feeling the christmas spirit, for some reason I'm not. But I am sure it will come around VERY soon for me.

*yawn* getting late. Bed time. Night'!


~Korin